It’s been a while…

Wow. My last post was quite fueled. Sorry?

I remember I was still holding on to a toxic friendship when I wrote that blog post, and man did I feel angry… obviously. I’m tempted to delete it, but if there’s one thing I’ve learnt, it’s that you should never destroy, delete or get rid of past journal entries. So in this case, I will keep it. I guess it is something to look back on.

** Since posting this, I decided to delete my last post… It did not represent the person I want to be**

A lot has changed since then.

I travelled to Romania to meet my husband’s family, for the first time ever. Had a wedding over there. Saw a lot of stray dogs that hurt my heart, and made my holidays a lot less enjoyable than I would have hoped. I wanted to save them all. Though, I will say, some of the strays may have had better lives than the dogs that lived with humans… The stray dogs were often fed by caring passer-bys… but not all. A lot of the animals that lived with, us ‘amazing humans’, would be tied up on short chains, in the hot sun, with little to no water (If I could, I always provided with them with water. My husband had to be my voice when asking his relatives or people around to provide some water for their dogs). Others, roamed free on their land. I didn’t know what to feel other than pain and sadness. It’s so much different than where I live and was brought up. I wanted to do more. I can happily say that we did save one little puppies life and found him a really great home. That makes my heart a bit more happier.

Anyways, my husband tells me there’s a famous Romanian actress that has a foundation for these animals. I can only hope more are saved than forgotten. It makes me feel worthless and wish I was better. Wish I could do more. I guess, “become a better human being” is still on my to-do list.


Shortly after we returned home, back to Canada. (Alberta to be precise..), I started school. Holistic Natural Nutrition School (through CSNN- Canadian School Of Natural Nutrition). Something I had been looking into for years, close to 7 years I would say. I had many attempts at different schools in my time. I tried, Special Needs Teacher Assistant… stopped after a few courses. Not sure why. Tried Medical Transcriptionist… quit after 3 months, it angers me to talk about because it was a hard time realizing that I was a quitter, but I could not stand the idea of having my career being sitting at a desk for how ever many hours a day, listening to doctors yap away too fast and mumble. Just wasn’t for me. See I would be happy to have a career online based (actually that’s my dream & goal), but one in which I am doing or talking about what I love or what think I love anyways.
I say ‘what I think I love’ because, I’m good at telling myself things that I want to believe. Like, ‘Oh, you would love a Medical Transcriptionist career’, or ‘You can work out 5 days a week, you can be that person’, or ‘You love nutrition and healing with food… you will do GREAT at Natural Nutrition…’.


Well, 2/3 of those haven’t worked out so well and the nutrition one, we have yet to tell.


What I DO know… is that I love the vegan lifestyle. Still. Always will. And quite honestly, I think I always did.  (I’ll save that topic for a later post)


Anyways, I’ve been doing this Natural Nutrition course for 6 months now, and have 4 months left, not including the 3 weeks of insane-stress filled of studying before the final exam in July. Eek. Talking about it makes me sick. I don’t want to think about it. K, no more talking about the exam. I don’t do exams well, especially when there’s so much riding on it.  Anyways, fingers crossed it doesn’t go as bad as I expect it to. ß Thanks, Anxiety! Negative thinking will bring negative reactions.  Insert * F*** YOU EMOJI *


While doing school though, I haven’t been able to focus on weight much… it’s constantly on my mind. I am constantly worrying about it, but I have such little time in the day, I can’t seem to find time to work out. Might sound like an excuse, but it is what it is.


Actually, that’s really it. That’s where I am at now. I forget what free time feels like. I forget what it’s like to go home and do nothing. What does that feel like? That must be nice?


I can’t wait to be done. I have my fingers crossed that I make it.






Starbucks’ Unicorn Frappuccino got nothing on these bad boys!

Guys… Just look at this beautiful creation I some how successfully created (well successfully followed a recipe and executed properly…)


RIGHT?! Aren’t they just the most beautiful things you’ve ever seen? Okay, I’m kidding, but for real they GORGEOUS! AND taste even better than they look!!!

Let me tell you how I got here… to this point of excitement and this beautiful dessert.

Well it all started with those damn, limited-time offer, Starbucks’ Unicorn Frappucinnos… I wanted to try one SO BAD. LET ME STOP YOU RIGHT THERE THOUGH… YES! I know how god damn bad they are for you, and how they are diabetes waiting to happen. Don’t play the “Oh, I would never drink that, have you heard how much sugar is in one of those drinks?” or “I have no desire to try one, I would rather eat my calories!” God, SHUT THE FUCK UP!! I just want a pretty fucking drink, alright? And just so you know, I honestly would have ordered a small or tall or whatever the fuck they’re called, I wouldn’t even want to or be able to finish the whole thing and thirdly, WHO THE FUCK CARES!? I just wanted a pretty drink, that I could figure out a way to VEGANIZE and show to the world that it is in fact POSSIBLE!!!

Anyways… I sadly didn’t get the chance to consume the un-believable amount of sugar-pretty-colorful drink. So my next thought was to create it my self. Days went by where I would think up how I was going to do it…. Well I ain’t no fucking chef, and honestly one of the things I SUCK the most at making…. believe it or not… is a god damn tasty smoothie/iced drink/whatever you wanna call it drink… So the idea of making a post-worthy… remotely drinkable drink sorda got a whole lot less exciting. (cause lets be honest; at that point, after going through the hassle of buying all the ingredients, making the damn thing, and making a damn mess, I wasn’t about to fucking pour that down the drain!)

I kind of gave up until a friend of mine sent me a pin…. AND THAT WAS IT. I saw these rainbow colored, beautiful dessert with the label VEGAN right above it… I was sold. I had to make them. It was maybe 4 days after I saw that post that I sat at work preparing my shopping list cause that evening I was gonna slay them bad boys! 😉

And boy, I slayed em good… Hahah…

Honestly, I thought I was going to mess up. And I almost did. If I hadn’t made the decision to use my spring-loaded pans (or whatever they are called), well I don’t think they would have came out as beautifully. Maybe if I had parchment paper… but I didn’t… Also I didn’t have the right size of pan for the recipe so I had to double somewhere… I didn’t have enough cashews to make two of the filling part but luckily had JUST ENOUGH extra dates lying around so I could whip up a extra portion of the base… In the end it worked out perfectly!

These will be my new go to “bring a dessert dish”!


I had the hardest time making that first cut… but I had to see inside! Aren’t they just beautiful! Specially for this girl!! Anyways, check out the recipe!!! I WISH I could create such amazingness!