I have to be honest with all of you… I feel as though I haven’t been 100% myself or honest with everyone. When I started up my instagram account, @lighten.up3, I wanted it to be about my new vegan lifestyle, my family, my fur-babies, my friendships and my weight loss journey… Though that is all I really post about on my page, I’ve been forgetting one key thing I wanted to stay true to… and that was to post the good side AND the not to good side of my life. Actually, I think I’ve forgotten to stay true to myself all together.
I’m done pretending to be someone else, or trying to be like others. I am done trying to be perfect!
Want to know the real me? The real me hardly wears make up now and I hardly do my hair, so the selfies you see are of the days I actually have to go out and be presentable… I honestly don’t have that many friends and the friends I do have I barely see because I am obsessed with being at home and have anxiety parting with ‘ME’ time. I’m not a very organised person, in fact I’m quite possibly the least organised person I know.. ugh! I don’t think I am as happy as I portray on social media, life is tough, life is also great but yeah, it’s also really fucking tough sometimes… I don’t have the attention span to take wonderful pictures of food nor the attention to detail so be ready for some sub-par food pics (because although many make fun of people who takes pictures of their food, I like to because seeing pictures of what others ate helped me along my journey so maybe I can do the same). I certainly am vegan and damn proud of it, that will never change. I am SO in love with my husband but we most definitely have our moments and arguments (but that shit you don’t need to see). I adore my fur-babies but because I made them their seperate account (yes, I’m obessed- wanna see? @theoverbites) I find I don’t post about them on my page, that’s going to have to change. I am on a weight loss journey, or do I even really want to call it that anymore? I’m so over ‘loosing weight’. I just want to achieve health and happiness, but for me to be happy that means, a bit of weight must be lost and so I will continue to call it a weight loss journey (for now)… I am loosing weight but it’s not as fast as most people would wish for it to be but that’s something I’ll be sharing with you more because you know why? Because, that shit’s fucking real. AND I’M OKAY WITH THAT!
I was starting to get so sick of instagram/posts I was seeing and was almost at the point of wanting to delete my account… but then I thought about all the awesome people I have met and who I follow on there, that I would honestly be sad to let it go. So why should I have to delete my account just because I was sick of the lies and the not-so-genuine posts/accounts on instagram? Instead I will stand against it and I will do my own thing.
This post right here, is my promise to all of my friends, ‘friends’, loved ones, followers, relatives (Ha who am I kidding, they wouldn’t read my shit!), my social media buddies (love you guys!), and to my self, that I am going to cut the fucking crap! I am DONE with all the bull shit, fake-ass, poser-ass shit social media drives us to be. I did what I said I wasn’t going to do and I AM DONE!!
So here’s to posting less fake-ass bull shit and some more fresh & for real shit!
That’s all I got for you today.